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Pacing around each other the two
actors seemed to be doing more than acting out their parts in a rehearsal.
Bearn, the elder one with his quiet calm and the serious dedication he put
in every role he played had not yet played with Tatar, the latest favourite
of the public who brought life to plays with his youthful exuberance.
Neither of them understood the other. They clashed on and offstage. Bringing
even more realism into the ancient story of love and betrayal. There seemed
to be electricity in the air, sparkling between the two men. The air around
them seemed to not allow others inside.
The rehearsal ended and everyone returned to reality, though the rivalry
between the two men lingered for a bit. Bearn turned away, forcing himself
to calm down before he headed to get changed. Was it jealousy? he wondered.
He was older yes, but he was far from being at the end of his career. He
should not feel threatened by Tatar's youth. No, what irritated him most was
the younger man's lack of talent. The nonchalance with which he acted out
the roles. Sure his eyes sparkled, but the sparkle was the same no matter if
he portrayed joy, anger, passion or grief. There was promise in Tatar, but
the younger man did not seem to want to polish his talent the way he enjoyed
the night life. Tired and frustrated Bearn sat in a chair, trying to make
his mind focus on a book he was reading.
Tatar, meanwhile was making no effort at all to cool down. He let the anger
run rampant inside him. His sharp tongue did not leave a shred of Bearn
untouched. Snide remarks passed his lips, making his friends laugh. He did
not understand Bearn, what was he doing wrong to get the more experienced
man's disapproval? He had the public eating out of his hand, everyone raved
about how much they loved his acting. They liked him more than the stuffy
old man for sure. Maybe it was jealousy. Though he wanted to believe that
explanation, Tatar wasn't egoistical enough to think Bearn was that
unprofessional. There had to be something else. But what? His anger flared
up again and Tatar flung out his arm in rebellion.
"Let's go drinking until dawn!" he called, getting cheers in reply.
Maybe drinks and the attention of a young woman might bring back his sense
of calm confidence. Why was it that he disliked Bearn anyway? He'd once
admired the man...
The next morning came soon for Tatar
who'd been out until the early hours. The girl beside him had indeed helped
him divert his attention, but now with the buzz of the alcohol gone his
anger felt as hot as it had been the night before. With a bad mood and the
knowledge that today would not be different from yesterday, Tatar rose from
his bed and readied himself for rehearsal.
Bearn had been awake for some time, practicing his voice and expressions.
The frustration of the night before had not abided. He was still stumped
about Tatar. His dislike of the man seemed to go further than just a waste
of talent. Could his dislike of the man be a direct consequence of his
inability to understand him? Was he maybe scared to let those feelings
inside him? He who'd played the role of king as well as murderer. How could
he be afraid of a man who was a drunk and a womanizer? Or was he afraid of
the fact that such a man could be loved by the masses for more than a year?
How could such a man hold their attention? How could it be that such a man,
such an absolutely worthless man... quietly Bearn sat down. This was more
than just about Tatar, this went deeper. Deeper than he ever thought his
mind would go, to a wound in himself that he'd long thought healed.
Tatar strode inside the theatre only to find the source of his anger already
there on stage. Practicing the dialogue. Not only Bearn's role, but every
single part was played out. Tatar waited for a moment, feeling a twinge of
admiration before anger closed off his mind. Suddenly Bearn sat down,
clearly confused.
"I see you've perfected your lost look." Tatar called, making his voice loud
enough to fill the hall.
Bearn looked up with a strange look in his eyes. Sadness maybe, anger, but
also fear was reflected in them, but Tatar was too far away to notice.
"So you've come to rehearse?" Bearn asked, his voice restrained and calm,
driving Tatar's anger even further.
"Yes, I do rehearse." he said, adding "Unlike what you might think."
Bearn, hurt with the remark that now did not sound so unjust to him got up
and started walking, trying to leave the theatre. he needed to think this
through, needed to make amends."
"Don't let my presence bother you." Tatar called.
"I'm not bothered." Bearn said, "No I am, but it has nothing to do with
you."
"I see, I don't even mean anything to you. I should have known. My presence
is insignificant to you."
"It isn't like that..." Bearn said, the anger of the other man pulling at
his own, "I'm doing it for the good..."
"For my own good?"
"No for mine!" Bearn growled.
Knowing full well that Bearn was near exploding Tatar continued anyway."
"I know I'm not from a good family like you. And I know that I'm not as good
as you." Tatar felt hurt admitting this, but it was the truth anyway, "But
you know, I'm still sought out, people love me more than they love you. And
that's because I'm more like them, flawed and flailing to get what they
want."
"Yet you want to throw it all away! You want to go out and have fun for as
long as it lasts, but let me tell you, it won't last long. You'll burn up
sooner than later, drunken and broken by the side of the road, dead and
forgotten, crushed by your own foolishness."
"Then at least I lived!" Tatar replied angrily, who was he to lecture him?
"No you wouldn't." A truly painful look was on Bearn's face and now there
was no looking past it.
"I'm not some boy you need to take by the hand." he spat, "I'm fully capable
of taking care of myself."
"So was she." Bearn whispered so the other man could not hear it.
"I know." he said louder, "I know..."
"Then leave me alone!" Tatar shouted, "this argument is over."
But before he could turn around and leave the theatre, two hands clapped. A
man strode into the light from the darkness where the audience would
normally be. He word the outfit of a knight, sturdy clothes for a man who
looked like he knew how to stand his own.
"I like your passion." he smiled, "But I'll have to interrupt your fight for
a question."
The two men gazed at the judge for Descas and wondered what he wanted.
Normally knights did not have time to come watch the play, though the castle
was invited each time.
"I'll go ahead then, it seems my drak has seen you two and she is certain
you shall do well at the upcoming mind pair. Would you agree to aspire?"
"I have a job." Bearn answered coldly.
"Yes and look where it's gotten you and your loved one." Twan replied with a
warm smile, "Merilka is especially interested in you."
Tatar stirred on the other side of the stage, "Which does not mean she isn't
interested in you." Twan told him, "It's just that it's not often that she
meets someone who's been judged by her on a second judging. She is quite
upset that you did not pair."
"I left." Bearn hissed.
"And a sad event it was." Twan said, his eyes cold as steel, "But it is time
to move on."
He turned to Tatar and said, "He shall have to tell you the truth behind
this himself. Ask him, it might enlighten you as to why you do not get
along. And pairing a drak in these calm times should not intervene with your
acting should you be worried about that."
"So who's coming?"
"Do we have a choice?" Tatar asked.
"The correct answer would be no. We don't have time. You'll get plenty of
practice acting since there'll be little time to train you as aspirant. Now
let's go."
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Stats
and Draks:
Bearn and Ore Genkiki (m)
Tatar and Plant Xaokiki (m) |